I hope I am done looking!

I don't feel sick stressing about a career! I do however have a problem at the moment about being seriously distracted and not getting any Chemistry studying happening. Who cares right now anyways? I am stoked, however many people tell me, "Oh you will be a terrible psychologist." and "I give it two weeks until you change your mind again." I don't care! That's silly, that is actually why people tell me I would be awful; because I am not emphatic and don't care about people a lot of the time. That makes me feel stupid. ANYWAYS, I will just ignore that, as any of you reading this should do. Who am I kidding? Nobody reads this.
The reason why I have decided upon this and decided it is final? Because, I feel like I am not searching, like I am satisfied and don't feel pushed to stress myself out by continuously looking for answers. I have found a career where I can: indirectly help others, directly help others, study interesting material, be involved in logical thinking that is applied with purpose and not applied to society and machines, a broad range which all interests me and some more areas more than the rest! I have too many interests, that is why it is very hard to pick an area, since I am not extremely interested in any. The field within psychology that I find most attraction is Experimental Psychology.

"Experimental psychologists work in a wide variety of settings including colleges, universities, research centers, government and private businesses. Some of these professionals may focus on teaching experimental methods to students, while others conduct research on cognitive processes, animal behavior, neuroscience, personality and many other subject areas."
http://psychology.about.com/library/quiz/bl-psychologycareerquiz.htm?questnum=10&aa=952&bb=3803&cc=4280&dd=3800&ee=1425&ff=3325

The Dream

I had a lovely dream.  I think, maybe I dreamed it as a play. There was two people a girl and a boy. The girl was mad because her best friend ditched her for this cute boy in some way. She was really upset, I guess she must have missed her birthday or something. The cute boy comforted her because he didn't know. Told her that they were to make the best friend jealous by holding hands in the halls. She was so intimidated by boys but it wasn't like this was flirtatious or anything so she felt okay. He looked over his shoulder at her and she was looking down at her feet to hide her rosy cheeks. Wow! She liked him, he probably would have never new. He sweeps the hand that she is holding around her shoulder and smiled sweetly at her. She makes eye contact and smiles a wide grin. He leans in and kisses her; she is so shocked, but his kiss tastes so sweet she leans in. With his back now pressed against a locker and people in the hall staring he twirls her and goes down on one knee with his arms spread wide, "Will you be my princess?" he says with the brightest blue eyes. She looks left and right, slightly embarrassed and then sees his childish grin and nods profusely at the site of this charming lover. They embrace and her best friend walks by glaring. WAKE UP.

So cute. I want a boyfriend haha, uh gross. I am such a little girl. 

11/7/2012

Colors I don't like.


Lately I don't want hugs.
I had 'dream' tea this morning.
I feel imbalanced as usual.

"If your favorite color is red, you are action oriented with a deep need for physical fulfillment and to experience life through the five senses.
If your personality color is pink you have a deep need to be accepted and loved unconditionally."

Shall' I spin my internal wheel? Change likes to dislikes, dislikes to likes?

I love red and pink, they are my favorite colors.

I love red and pink, they are my favorite colors.

I love red and pink, they are my favorite colors.

I love red and pink, they are my favorite colors.

I love red and pink, they are my favorite colors.

I love red and pink, they are my favorite colors.

I love red and pink, they are my favorite colors.

I love red and pink, they are my favorite colors.

I love red and pink, they are my favorite colors.

I hate him. I hate me.

11/6/2012

Today I feel inclined towards the colors Orange, Brown and Blue.
I am drinking earl grey tea, a calm happy tea.
I want to be a singer in a band. I don't want a career.
I wish I could play guitar better.
I have too much homework to have fun.
I am going to play InkLink now.




If orange is your favorite color, you have a great need to be with people, to socialize with them, and be accepted and respected as part of a group. You also have a need for challenges in your life, whether it is physical or social challenges.Lovers of blue have a deep need to find inner peace and truth, to live their life according to their ideals and beliefs without having to change their inflexible viewpoint of life to satisfy others.

Lovers of brown have a deep need for a safe, secure, simple and comfortable existence with supportive family and friends.
http://www.empower-yourself-with-color-psychology.com/personality-color.html